Roy's Epiphany
Rating: PG for implied m/m interaction
Fandom: Shanghai Noon, Chon Wang/Roy O'Bannon
Feedback: Yes, please, at armida19@hotmail.com
Archive: Yes.
Summary: The sequel to "Longing," third in the "Following" series. Roy
reflects on what he thinks he's seen.
Warnings: None.
Disclaimer: All things Shanghai Noon belong to Spyglass Entertainment and
Touchstone Pictures. This is for entertainment purposes only and no
infringement is intended.
Notes: I guess this is a series now. I have a hard time with titles, so I
borrowed this one from one of the tracks from the SN score. This is my
attempt at Roy's POV.
Roy's Epiphany
By Armida
Well, hell.
Chon and the princess, together in her tent. This probably shouldn't
surprise me. I shoulda figured that he'd end up with her. The way he
talked about her I could tell he was crazy in love with her. Not that I
could blame him. She is a beautiful woman.
"You are not fit to talk about her," he'd said, but what he'd really meant
was "hands off, she's mine." That's right, I can see it all now. He's
always wanted her.
Never mind that just last night he was with me, I kissed him, he put his
hands on me, and he told me he loved--
But wait a minute. This is a good thing. I'm glad they're together. I was
getting a little worried about my ol' buddy Chon. I mean, it's one thing
for two guys who are alone on the trail to help each other out in the
absence of female companionship, if you know what I mean. It happens. It
doesn't mean anything. It seemed to me that Chon was taking things a bit
too seriously, saying "I love you" and all that. Guys just don't say that
to each other.
So it's a good thing that he's gotten over all those crazy notions and that
he's with the princess. I'm relieved, yes I sure am. It is a load off my
mind. In fact, I'm happy for him. I'm happy that they're together, right
now. Although it does seem just a little strange that he could be with her
just one night after he was telling me I'm the reason he didn't want to go
back to China. That's a heavy burden to put on a man, telling him something
like that. To think that anyone, especially me, could be the reason for a
decision like that--it's just too much. But, no matter now. He's with her..
You gotta wonder, though--how well does he know this princess anyway? I
mean, I'm happy for him and all, but it seems a little sudden. Chon is a
nice guy, but he's a little too trusting. Like I said, he's a greenhorn.
She could take advantage of him and he wouldn't even know it until it was
too late. What if she doesn't love him? She could break his heart without
even meaning to. Chon's the type of person who takes things too seriously,
always talking about his honor, and his duty.
I'm just a little worried about him, that's all. I want him to be careful
because I like the guy. He's my friend. We're partners. We're good
together. But, that's all there is between us, and that's all there ever
can be. He must know that by now. After all, I'm Roy O'Bannon, former
wanted man, known to drive girls crazy. The ladies love me, and I love
them.
Take Falling Leaves, for instance. She's beautiful, and she's crazy about
me. I know that Chon saw me leave with her tonight, and he looked a little
upset, but I didn't mean to hurt him. I feel bad that he saw us together,
now, but maybe it was a good thing. In fact, it was a good thing for him
to see me with a woman. So he doesn't get any more ideas about him and me.
He did look hurt, though. It was a pretty awful thing for me to do, I know..
But, nothing happened with me and Falling Leaves, anyway. Well, not much..
Not that I didn't want it to, because I did. She's a beautiful woman; any
man would want her. I was just tired, and had drunk too much whiskey.
Things like that happen to every man once in a while. It can't be helped.
It didn't mean anything.
I know that there's not a problem with Little Roy, because last night
everything worked just fine. More than fine. Three times, as a matter of
fact. Where did Chon learn how to do those things, anyway? It surely
wasn't Imperial Guard school. God, just thinking about it, his hands and
his mouth and--OK, see? No problem with Little Roy.
Whew. OK Roy, focus. Probably not a good idea to think about that right
now. Anyway.
What happened with Falling Leaves, though, it wasn't because I was thinking
about him, or thinking about last night. That's just insane. Like I said,
she is a beautiful woman. Just because her kisses didn't taste right, or
because she didn't touch me the way he did, that doesn't mean anything
either.
It wasn't because I miss him already, although I do. I hate this strangeness
between us. I miss the way we used to be together, the funny things he'd
say, the way he made me laugh. I could tell him anything. He trusts me and
I hurt him and I hate that. I've never felt closer to anyone, but I mean
only as a friend. As buddies. That's all. Anything else is just not
possible.
OK, so last night was great--was spectacular actually--but it was just one
night. It can't be anything more than that. Now, he's with the princess,
and I'm happy for them. In fact, they're together right now, and he's
touching her, and he's kissing her, making love to her.
To her.
Not me.
Last night he told me he loved me--me, Roy O'Bannon the screw-up.
Nobody's ever said that to me before, at least not so that I'd believe it.
He told me he loved me, and what did I do? I told him to stop talking. I
acted like a jerk. And now he's with her.
Not me.
Oh hell. I'm in serious trouble here, aren't I?
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